i’m crossing that fresh-start line this year too. i can’t wait to delve into your archives — great writing here on your about page, too.
About
**Update & Redirect**
So … somehow I managed to delete ALL my posts rather than just those that were inappropriate for family to read and/or would identify people I know if someone else I knew were to find them. Granted … these types of entries make up 98% of the entries I had so there weren’t many left. But still. I’m discombobulated.
Staying anonymous was getting more and more difficult so I gave up. I’ve also been picking up my camera more and more, and found I wasn’t able to share as many of my photos as I would have liked in this “anonymous” format. So I’m merging my secret and real worlds in a new place, http://tacosandkorv.wordpress.com. It feels good to have a spot for both my “real” friends AND my “online” friends to come see me. Assuming y’all would still like to hang out. ;)
As for Inappropriate Text Guy … he got a second chance. And as it turns out, he really DIDN’T mean it that way. He is so kind, funny, independent, driven … blabbety blah blah blah. Turns out that what they say is true: when it’s right, it’s easy. And with him it’s so, so easy. We’re totally and equally smitten and not scared of a gosh darned thing. Commitment feels very good, very safe and very promising.
Anyway, hope to see you around Tacos & Korv!!
Like so many others, I weathered the quarter-life crisis. I took dead-end jobs. I dated men and believed the things they told me. I watched friends get married. I killed my credit score. I adopted small furry creatures. I questioned the point of church. I borrowed money from my parents. I cried through every episode of Grey’s Anatomy. I lost many I loved, one to an accident on an Alaskan highway and others simply to changes in life circumstance.
Cliché, I know. But when I was in the middle of it, I felt uniquely alone. And in that aloneness, I became me. Uniquely me.
I got over my inability to maintain a relationship for longer than one month. I accepted that I would not meet my start-having-kids-by-thirty goal. I remembered that I was smart. I stopped pretending that I preferred Tractor Tavern to McCaw Hall. I recognized the most significant source of my hurt was in how I had disappointed myself.
So here I am. Thirty isn’t the finish line, but it is a fresh start. A whole new decade. Yes, I’ll find new ways of messing up. But that’s okay, because I’m no longer that cliché. I am an opera loving, whiskey drinking, Tiber crossing, MBA earning, bunny loving woman, on the brink of what she will make to be the best ten years of her life.
Responses
By: KTS on January 22, 2008
at 7:29 am
thank you! gosh, the line is less than a month away for me …
By: iheartthirty on January 24, 2008
at 12:07 pm
Hey, chin-up! My dreams all started coming true at 35!!!
Before that, it was just lesson after lesson, after lesson. The only way to get thru it is to look like you’re having fun.
Thanks for checking out my blog!
-heidi
By: heidi on January 25, 2008
at 11:21 am
what a beautiful About page! I’ve got a few years to go, but what a beautiful perspective to have on turning 30.
By: tiff on January 29, 2008
at 9:08 am
I’m turning 30 in August this year.. wish me luck! :)
By: ecky on February 20, 2008
at 1:56 am
:)
By: bibomedia on February 29, 2008
at 12:36 am
what a great perspective!
i’m closer to thirty than i thought i’d be at this stage in my life… can’t wait to start reading your posts and see what i can learn and breathe easy about : )
By: notsojenny on March 17, 2008
at 1:02 pm
Randomly came across your blog today and just wanted to say that I loooove your writing! I can relate to sooo many points in almost all of your entries. Keep it up, you’ve gained a new fan today. =)
By: Rose on April 1, 2008
at 1:46 pm
Here’s to 30!! I turned 30 this year as well. And so far 5 months in, it has been better than 28 and 29 combined!
Sure not everything is where I’d like it to be but I’m feeling more confident and purpose driven by the day.
Glad to find you blog and I look forward to catching up and reading more!
By: lifeisbusting on May 17, 2008
at 11:34 am
